Love Your Self ^-^
Several years ago, a friend asked me a question. I forget the detail question, but I think it was like this, “what is the thing in this life that you struggle the most?”
With all my heart I replied, “My self. I think my self is my greatest enemy.”
Why? I can make a very long list for the things I hate within me.
I hate my self because I always careless, lose the things, drop the things, because I cannot cook, because its so difficult for me to wake up early in the morning, because I don’t like heavy reading so that I’m not as smart as my friend, because I’m not a house-wife type of girl, because I don’t like arguing, because of the feeling of useless that resides within me, because I have lived in sin, because I can’t be happy, because I cannot love myself, because I hate God, because I cannot get the love I want, because I scare, because I’m lonely, because I’m not so neat, because I don’t like make up, because I cannot start my own business, because I can’t this, because I can’t that, because bla bla bla….
Wow………
As I type this post now, I’m wondering. Did I really desperate for all those things? How could I still alive now??? :D
Well, some parts of me still support me to be a good girl :D
The main point why I didn’t like my self was because I had an image in my head, what kind of person I want to be, and I could not be like that.
I said to my self I would love my self after I can do those things I mentioned above. Never.
When I joined a camp about last year, the guru said something that really touched my heart. About forgive and live in peace. Forgive others. Forgive our selves. Forgive God.
All of us have so many parts within us. Every part of ourselves always wants the good things for us. They never want something bad for us. Sometimes they don’t want us to feel lonely. Sometimes they don’t want us to feel disappointed. Sometimes they don’t want us to feel ashamed. Every part of us always avoids the pain, although it means that you cannot achieve what you want, although it means you are not success. They only don’t want bad things happen to us. Aren’t they good actually? :D Btw, I think some people called it mental blocks (in case I don’t make my explanation clear enough, you can get more information about this).
What we need to do is to know our selves well. Accept and realize our condition. Don’t judge. Don’t hate. Don’t refuse. Just realize it. Accept it. Be honest to our selves. A friend told me that once we’re honest to our selves, we got the 50% of healing.
So many things happen in my life till I realized how I loved unconditionally. God, universe, everything within me, loves me for whatever I am. I’m learning. Learning to forgive. Learning to understand my self. Learning to know what each part of me tries to shout. Trust me… life is much more beautiful when we accept our selves completely.
Healing doesn’t come from hating our selves. Healing comes when we start to love and respect our selves as a whole with unconditional love, however and whatever we are.
That simple? It's only the beginning :D I do believe, whenever there’s a will, there’s always a way. Become better and better everyday in every way. Don't they say love have a great power?? :) I want to see then.
With all my heart I replied, “My self. I think my self is my greatest enemy.”
Why? I can make a very long list for the things I hate within me.
I hate my self because I always careless, lose the things, drop the things, because I cannot cook, because its so difficult for me to wake up early in the morning, because I don’t like heavy reading so that I’m not as smart as my friend, because I’m not a house-wife type of girl, because I don’t like arguing, because of the feeling of useless that resides within me, because I have lived in sin, because I can’t be happy, because I cannot love myself, because I hate God, because I cannot get the love I want, because I scare, because I’m lonely, because I’m not so neat, because I don’t like make up, because I cannot start my own business, because I can’t this, because I can’t that, because bla bla bla….
Wow………
As I type this post now, I’m wondering. Did I really desperate for all those things? How could I still alive now??? :D
Well, some parts of me still support me to be a good girl :D
The main point why I didn’t like my self was because I had an image in my head, what kind of person I want to be, and I could not be like that.
I said to my self I would love my self after I can do those things I mentioned above. Never.
When I joined a camp about last year, the guru said something that really touched my heart. About forgive and live in peace. Forgive others. Forgive our selves. Forgive God.
All of us have so many parts within us. Every part of ourselves always wants the good things for us. They never want something bad for us. Sometimes they don’t want us to feel lonely. Sometimes they don’t want us to feel disappointed. Sometimes they don’t want us to feel ashamed. Every part of us always avoids the pain, although it means that you cannot achieve what you want, although it means you are not success. They only don’t want bad things happen to us. Aren’t they good actually? :D Btw, I think some people called it mental blocks (in case I don’t make my explanation clear enough, you can get more information about this).
What we need to do is to know our selves well. Accept and realize our condition. Don’t judge. Don’t hate. Don’t refuse. Just realize it. Accept it. Be honest to our selves. A friend told me that once we’re honest to our selves, we got the 50% of healing.
So many things happen in my life till I realized how I loved unconditionally. God, universe, everything within me, loves me for whatever I am. I’m learning. Learning to forgive. Learning to understand my self. Learning to know what each part of me tries to shout. Trust me… life is much more beautiful when we accept our selves completely.
Healing doesn’t come from hating our selves. Healing comes when we start to love and respect our selves as a whole with unconditional love, however and whatever we are.
That simple? It's only the beginning :D I do believe, whenever there’s a will, there’s always a way. Become better and better everyday in every way. Don't they say love have a great power?? :) I want to see then.
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